Blog created!! Aug 21st, 2007 (Tues)

Dear hon,

I am creating this blog so that you have something to chew while you are excitingly awaiting for my arrival. I hope that things work out as I planned! It would be tricky because you need to work.

Tonight is the night that I sang you the new song. I evaded your question for what I did today, cause I mailed both the letter #1 and the chocolate parcel out, and I spent a couple hours trying to finish the chorus. While you expressed that you liked and appreciated it, I was hoping that you would have more excitement and happiness. Thank God for that I have learned my lesson and have lowered my expectations. Our little arguments in the past few days served their meanings.

In the last few days I started praying to God to ask Him to teach me how to love you. And He has been answering. In today's purity course that I just took, it talked about the story of the adulterous woman. I have recently read this so many times because we studied this a few months ago at the student fellowship and just last month for our John Sunday group.

But today it casted a new light at a different angle. I felt like one of those pharisees. I guess I had been setting unrealistic expectation from you hon, for that you have already been doing your best under that challenges you are going through, but as an imperfect pharisee, I didn't see that and I wanted to judge you.

God is showing me today that before anything I have to first judge myself!
I hope that I will get more inspiration to complete the song. Whether it will get you excited or not, it does not matter anymore. I just hope to do what I can in the slightest way.

I just prayed for you. I will continue to pray for you, daily. I told you lately many times that "I love you", but what kind of love is this, if I won't even pray for you every day? I will no longer base our love on lies, but on the truth of God.

I should call it a night.
Andrew