Waiting for your call

Dear hon,

So it is almost noon your time, and you should be having lunch soon after your morning training, if not already.

Though unlikely to happen, I hope that you can give me a call, even a short one.
Tonight's Bible Study preparation with Eric was very great. Based on his background and knowledge of the Bible he had done a great job in attempting to answer many of the questions and had some very interesting insights. Hoped that you were here. At closing we prayed, and he sincerely asked God to use him and help him to lead this very first Bible study of his. Very touching indeed.

There is a new meaning to my engineering ring which I wear on my little finger. As you know, lately I have been praying for you everyday when I get up, and I told myself that I will not wear it unless I have done that, and it must be genuine. So whenever you see that I have it on now, it would be a token of my dedication to love you. I look forward to the day when the same meaning is applied to a different ring.

I am very tired, as it has been a long stressful day, and I still have to take two stupid calls tomorrow. After Eric left I prepared for a song presentation for the weekend retreat. One thing I learned from the past is that, whenever you are tired or frustrated, go back to where you began. I picked one of the very first songs that I sang when I started serving, back when I just joined church. It brings back any memories and I recall how fresh I was. Innocent and cheerful, I had little challenge in my life and I sang with hope. The future was bright and life was beautiful. It is 10x harder now but I am 100x more mature and have been granted 100x more blessings.

If you don't call me in 15 minutes, I will take a shower and play some videogames. I think I am not going to play Paper Mario, nor Dragonball, but an old school robot fighting game for PS2. Why? I feel like going back to my roots tonight!

This morning I read another 1/2 chapter about Hudson Taylor. He met his spiritual father and took the brave move to submit and answer his calling to go to Swatow; only in tears did he find out that his spiritual father answered the same calling.

How touching, and yet, how realistic. This i) struggle -> ii) submit -> iii) blessing cycle happened so many times in my life but I always forget about it. The best example is how you and I started. I will never forget that Sunday morning, kneeling by myself and asking God to remove my feelings towards you, only to learn that you have developed feelings towards me on the same day.

This gives me courage. I am exhausted, worn-out and afraid. But I will carry on. The sunshine will come and the victory is at hand! I guess you won't call me, and I am happy because that means you are occupied with (new) colleagues meeting new people. Shower time for me!

Andrew