Looking deeper into you

Dear hon,
So this is the morning that I got up early to meet Chris at 9:00 am.
I shared with you that from the "2002 Dating tips" book one of them listed 3 important things for married couples. I checked once more before I depart, there are indeed four bullets:

• Laughing together often (We said we need to do this more once I am in HK)
  
• Making love regularly (too bad this is not applicable for us, yet)
• Sharing your lives with each other
  
• Tell each other how you feel about one another
  

On my way to meet Chris I called you, hoping that we can chat just a bit more because the previous chat was constrained. I then found out that you were watching TV with your mom and I (unwillingly) offered to end the call, though hoping that you would ask to spend 5 minutes with me. After we hung up I remembered this 4th point above, and in retrospect I realized that instead of telling you what I am thinking, I should reverse it and look deeper into what you were thinking. I instantly recall that in our earlier call when I commented how our intimacy has somewhat lost the touch in the past week or so, and you agreed stating that it has to do with the timing of our calls. You told me that you just finished shower after your work day and was tired, and have orientation planning to do (which is what you are doing at this moment while I am writing this blog). Then I realize that when I called you the second time, aside from the fact that you want to spend time with your mom you needed some quiet time, to have your mind empty out and be refreshed. It is quite a good exercise cause if I were to do it again I wouldn't have called you in the first place, knowing that you needed that solitude time.

Hon I am learning how to love you more everyday and I told myself to put more into your shoes more often before I act and I speak. I am praying to God to be less self-centered and put you in front of me. I am looking at my engineering ring and I am making this promise, out of joy and not out of responsibility. I told myself that I will be more sensitive in the next few days and see how much I can improve :)

The chat with Chris was quite encouraging. I would love to have a long chat with you about that. It seems unlikely to happen in the next few days however since I am pretty occupied in the mornings for the next few days, and the only available time slots for you to engage in any relatively longer calls would be past 9:30 pm or 10:30 pm your time. It is ok, it can wait. Or I can put them into this blog.

I should head back to work. Sometimes I wonder if any "mo Liu" person would read my blog, and may even comment (there are "comment" buttons associated with each post).

Love,
Andrew